IWORKHERE:
It takes alot of courage to post what you posted here & without having meet you not sure how much advice I can offer you but I'll try, My biggest regret is giving up lawenforcement & going into the airlines.(If only I could've known) Personally I would not want to work for Boarder Patrol either. With that said I would sugguest you look into local lawenforcement.(PD's). Talk to the depts. you may be interested in & see if you can get a ride a long. If so I bet you might be hooked, You say you want to help people. In lawenforcement you can help people every day & make a difference in their life. Now only problem with that I think you must be around 22. I think from reading your posts you have your head on better than me when I was that age as that's when I started in le & quite frankly I didn't at that age get the helping people thing.
If I can help please by all means pm or ask. I hope this helps alittle bit.