There will be many here praying for you & your family , eielef .

God never fails ! Cling onto Him always through difficult times like this , and otherwise .
Your mother is not suffering any more . And if she had a relationship with God , as you indicate , she is in a much better place .

Take heart , you are not alone . You must grieve .
Travel , whatever it takes you to “ enjoy “ .
Perhaps going home or thereabouts when it is cooler can be an option .
Please keep us posted on your trips , hopefully not as intense as what you have been doing recently though ..

And talking about Lord of the Rings , Catweazle , we will be visiting some of where it was filmed next month