Oh Rudi,
I don't know how to respond after your confession. Our pets are such an important part of us and our lives. It's hard enough to lose one friend, but to lose two of them so close together. You can find comfort in the thought that they are still together. Perhaps, with time, you will be able to find the room in your heart for yet another one in need of love and care.
If I may, I am the proud "mother" of 4 kitties, Mishagus, Chiclet, LaMeiux and Tattalla. They are my very spoiled children.
And yes, they sure do travel well. Have litter pan, will travel.
Cindi