Grow up and pull yourself together. Fear of flying is irrational. Instead of choosing to be irrational, choose to be rational. The FA's will not sit with you to calm you down. You are a grown up, and grown ups can fly alone.

And if you are incapable of that, then get a perscription to change your brain state. What makes you think you will freak out on the drugs? Only Ambien carries that risk, and so far you don't know if you react to it like that. Why not benzodiazepines? Nobody freaks out on those.