Well Svpii, I'm am sorry that you have to say so long, but I respect your decision.
This is just a suggestion, but maybe step away from F-T, enjoy your family and freinds and if you decide to come back then DIGRESS FROM ALL THE NEGATIVITY!!! It took many Flyertalkers here to make me realize that: Ignore the nonsense and let those who wish to fight, fight it out themselves.
Remember the Elton John song, "Friends Never Say Goodbye."
I hope to see you back, even as Lurker svpii.